To the family
To be honest no, I’m not okay. I’ve not been comfortable or okay around a guy sexually or romantically in a long time not sure when it happened but over the course of life itself whether good or bad, in all directions this is the outcome of mine.
I can’t be free dating or be together with a guy, man, or a male right now… perhaps ever.
It’s not your fault. Thing’s happens all the time. There can be a lot of factors, sure, but since life happens there’s no need to go back. It doesn’t change the present or the future because the past will always be the past. It’s unchangeable.
Don’t blame yourself and don’t judge, please and I wouldn’t do the same of all the preconceived wrongs there is in the world. Either you know or you know.
I’m still the same but love differently I’m aware you all want and require peace as of everyone involved.
If we are supposed to be a family unit this part of me needs to be accepted – it’s none negotiable I feel. From the depts of my heart I want you to accept it but I can’t force you into doing things you don’t want. I’m aware we all have free will and this is what it is.
If you want me to be healthy mind body and soul, for my mental wellbeing this has to be an okay. I know it’s a lot and a process to behold with all the traditions, doctrines and so forth but this is what it is surely I’ll give you the time and space you need.
This is how we heal. Everybody has their free will to do as they please. God knows all, at the end of the day, and wouldn’t allow things to be if it wasn’t so so it all comes down to this will we choose peace will we be a unity of acceptance and prosperity as a family?
If you’re open to talk we can, but I’m not open to talk to change my mind.
For those that are religious I’ve already prayed about this as you pray about things. Don’t let your mind get into the way of your heart that’s not where God resides.
And if you’re thinking about kids well it’s a new day and age and the possibilities are endless.